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‘The comeback is greater than the setback’

Early in this journey a friend sent me the above quote. I loved it then and I love it now. It has been on my mind this week as I feel my strength returning and as Amber 2.0 is beginning to emerge.

There are changes I am noticing in the way I am approaching things…..

Things that used to scare me don’t (like helicopter rides).

Things that I found challenging aren’t (like being patient in a waiting room, love my sudoku).

I’m more likely to say what I want, I’ve got nothing to lose (you can always say no!).

I’m getting on and doing it (not just thinking about it).

I am finally starting to feel like me again but with improvements. I’ve got hair (albeit grey). I’ve got life. I’ve got health. I’ve got eyebrows!

The biggest change in my outlook this month has been focusing on exercise, both for my physical and mental health. I have been taking a rehabilitation gym class with a physiotherapist. Each week I surprise myself at how much I have improved and it feels so good.

I am swimming twice a week and for the first time in years I am back in the pool, having favoured the ocean. I forgot how much swimming is like meditation. Rhythm and flow. The black line is my friend.

There is no doubt I am coming back stronger. I won’t be taking life for granted anymore. Life is for living and with spring around the corner, I am looking forward to what is next.

Ax

I’m a survivor!

Today marks a very important day…………..the completion of my last three week cycle of chemotherapy. It is officially over, my bloods are good and it is time to move forward with my life. From this point on, I can consider myself a cancer survivor 🎉🎉

Wow, what a journey it has been…….

From the sick feeling in the pit of my stomach when I put the ultrasound probe on my own breast, to the shock of hearing the actual words “it’s a lobular breast cancer”, to the surgical decisions, to the prospect of chemotherapy, to losing my hair, to feeling completely debilitated, to today, seeing that bright light at the end of the tunnel.

I have taken you all on my journey and I thank each and every one of you for reading. I hope in some small way my words might help others. The support I have received throughout has been amazing and unwavering. I have learned so much about myself and about human nature. I feel privileged and humbled to live and work in such a supportive community.

I will continue to share with you how I am traveling as I am not naive enough to think that the story ends here, but the updates will be less often. I know there will still be challenges and unseen hurdles but I am confident I am now better equipped to deal with…….. shit (for want of a better word!).

A present from my McGrath nurse

You know me…….. always one to do my homework. I plan on reading this and adhering to as much of the advice as I can, because what I want more than anything, is to move forward with a fulfilling and positive life. One that is bigger, better and happier (less stressed) than pre-cancer.

Ax